Kakkerlak

When you haven’t a thing to do
No one near with a quiet ear
When everyone looks a pale shade of blue
Who do you turn to?
Walking with your head to the ground
All your hopes are floating down
You’ve got nothing to hold around
All you can is dance and
Shut everybody out
Oh! Sweet nothing, you haven’t any at all
Oh! Sweet nothing, [...]

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Lose big

I’m standing between two roads.
One leads down a path of self fufillment, loneliness, and solitude.
The other, dependency, devotion, and dire guilt.
I just think I need someone.
I need him so much closer.
I’m through with oblivious individuals that haven’t a clue about emotion,
Passion,
Sentiment,
Maudlin displays of affection (Okay, well perhaps not that)
I’m through with denying the fact that [...]

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Fondness and Endearment

Totally unfinished and completely lame…
 
Can’t fake it for too long
Smile, bite my tongue
As I remember ways it could go wrong
but I’m waiting without doubt
that you might make it out
while resentment showers out and down
 
I never know why I remain
Ignoring her disdain
clinging strong onto the blinds of shame…
 

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Dandy Warhol

I don’t want to admit it, but I’m alone. Loneliness would completely sum up my life right now. I hate my job, I don’t feel free despite the fact I’m currently on a two month vacation. I wish I could be more hip and cool. I wish people could actually want to talk to me [...]

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The Rollercoaster Ride

Today was one of those incredible days when you forget everything: drama, problems, worries, all of those morose aspects none desire to dwell upon. This week has been up and down. My grades are satisfactory, at least enough for me to relax for a bit. My friends are another story. I’m pretty much beginning to [...]

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I’m a hermit

I’m extremely introverted this week. Monday and today were a bust… I just want to drive on through to the weekend where I can finally enjoy some peace. Being alone for once doesn’t sound all that menacing at the moment.

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I will never

I’ll never be able to say everything that I want to, will I?

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Conundrums, Conundrums, Conundrums

I’m so confused right now. I think Keri thrusted a carbon copy of her problematic situation onto me. I am just committing such tragically immoral crimes mentally. Thank God I don’t act instantaneously on all of my emotions. I just wanted it to be us tonight. I’m such a selfish asshole but seriously; how [...]

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Summer and the Whale

The whale in question being none other than this dreadful, goddamn week in my path to a pristine sand and ocean infested spring break. And of course, I hit myself in the face with the fridge door and look retarded; lets hope that doesn’t hold a bit of symbolism. Not to mention, ironically it being [...]

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Good Morning Starshine!

The earth says hello, as well as I. Okay, so it’s not morning, however, I feel sincere all the same. Okay, Summer, think blogging. Well I’m a bit down these past couple weeks. Nothing has really gone right in the departments of which I would like anything positive to adhere to. My academics are satisfactory [...]

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