I’m so confused right now. I think Keri thrusted a carbon copy of her problematic situation onto me. I am just committing such tragically immoral crimes mentally. Thank God I don’t act instantaneously on all of my emotions. I just wanted it to be us tonight. I’m such a selfish asshole but seriously; how long does it take for two people to get sick of each other. Sufjan Stevens please speak to me! Voice everything through the speakers and tell me just what to do, and what is the correct piece flowing through this massively muddled brain of mine. I feel absolutely disgusted at the fact that I actually possess the faintest version of envy somewhere inside myself. I feel awful. I mean Kristen knew this was going to happen, but really why now? I hate this I just want to go to sleep and wish it not to happen. Well I don’t entirely regret thinking things, but just not now. I’ve been told to just bottle it up, bottle it up until you run out of glass.
